Well okay so, its decided. I will try the writing down something and see if that works. When I go in to the Session and we sit down, I do the usual .... put the jacket on my legs & put the bag on top and sort of look embarrassed around me up and down etc anywhere but at the T. She doesn't say anything but if I look at her she kind of smiles but still says nothing and when the silence goes on for too long thats when she wil start. A few weeks ago, when I felt the silence went on too long, I just got up and walked out, which I guess was pretty rude. I don't want that to happen again. I would like my T to be the Expert. I don't mind her bieng the Expert, it would suit me just fine

I really hope this Therapy gets easier with time, its very hard, but sometimes when I leave a session I actually feel a bit better. I'm seriously going to try. I'll let you guys know if it works. Not til next Wednesday, so that gives me plenty of time. Thanks for all the replies. It really helps