Gee sorry you feel this way. I certainly didn't intend to minimize what you have gone through, and what continues to be distressful in your life. Have you tried online therapy? There are some links from this site.

Also, a book The Courage to Heal, along with a workbook, can help you work through this at your own pace. I can only imagine what you feel, and how frustrated you must be without a support system.

Maybe you can get to know more of us here, and develop an online support group for you and you try to heal.

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