I do recall this feeling getting more extreme on some medications, to where it was happening all the time. For the past 3 weeks ive been without medication. 2 months ago i had my iud removed and stopped drinking caffeine. Then shortly after i stopped smoking marijuanna and stopped my anxiety meds (that i was only on for about a month) so now im medication free. Its always happened, thats why i wondered if it was normal. But certain medications did make it happen frequently. Unmedicated it happens when im really upset. Angry, afraid. Nervous, sad. When i got the call about my very close grandmother having the strokes, it happened and i stayed like that for about a week. I never dealt with the loss, i guess i just handled it this way. Everyone thought i would lose it, but i just went into the buble and went with the motions. Thank you for your reply amanda, knowing you work in the psych field is of great help to me and this site. I dont black out and lose my full memory this way, so i didnt know if it too was related. I just kind of felt like i wasnt controlling or doing the talking or work. But assumed it had/has to be me since i remember.. i dont know if it was parts or me, but i guess my t can help me sort that... it happens quite a bit when im under stress, perhaps ill start writing when it does in the journal. Another thing... worries me health wise but ive wondered if it was a dissociative thing... a t once told me some could dissociate pain, i often when upset, lose feeling in my body. I can still move and do but i dont feel my body moving, i see it moving but cant feel the movements, often its accompanied with the above mentioned, but not always. I have brought it up with my general practitioner (the feeling, not the head part, he doesnt know about my DID diagnosis and i dont want him to) but he didnt say anything about it, just looked at me like i was crazy or lieing.

Perhaps the pdoc should be the one i tell this too? I dont know. Ive also got to see a neurologist as well. I wish it were easier to figure this out. Got a ct scan on my head that came back normal, few more tests to be done but neuro t and pdoc thinks everything thus far, seizures included are mental and not physical. Gaaah, i need to just get my phd and figure this out myself. Thank you again amanda, youre always very helpful. Knowing you exp erience personally and work closely with those in this field.

One more question, if parts dont have to