Everyone offers really good advice. I really agree with what Venus just said about taking an aspirin, etc. Meds are supposed to be something to bring you relief, enough relief so you want to take them. I did not like lamictal personally, I felt like a zombie, I was unproductive. I even stopped going to the doctor for 6 months after I tried that one. Can you keep trying some different ones until you find one you like? I'm currently taking the lithium and welbutrin because I like how they make me feel. I can't really explain it, they don't make everything feel all happy and sparkly, but I feel better and feel like the mania/hypomania whatever it is, is not going to return. I wouldn't be taking them if I didn't like the feeling. So I guess I think I'm in control.