Reading this thread has been really interesting. As of last night I convinced myself I needed to get back on meds, but all I ever was on meds was stable and I ended up hating it. I honestly think meds kept me in a bad marriage for longer than I should have been since I never had any other emotion than "meh".

So I am right there with Miguel'smom, I am not a fan of meds.

Now, I don't want to hijack this thread but is it possible to only treat the portions of BP you don't like? In my case I hate the depression but I'll live with everything else. The mood swings, the highs, the normals. I see an NP next week and was set to get back on meds, but this thread just leaves me thinking I don't want that. I still want my moods I just don't want months of depression where I self destruct relationships anymore.