(((ickydog2006)))

I feel for you ~ I really struggled on some days, and that was before my second girl came along! I got lucky and found a MOMS group in my local area. They were a huge sense of emotional support for me, and gave my daughters opportunities to meet other kids their age and play with them. MOMS Club was so wonderful for me!

I also got my first (and second, for a little while) daughter involved with Gymboree. Not real cheap, but we could afford it at that time.

Even still, I often find myself feeling emotionally removed from my girls. Not because I don't love them. I do love them ~ that I know! But, I haven't fulfilled my expectations of myself as a mommy. I take them to parks, read lots of books, do crafts, YMCA, etc. But, I don't get down on the floor and let myself completely loosen up. NEVER. I think that I'm always at least a little (sometimes a lot) emotionally reserved.

I hate myself for that. I really don't want my girls to think or feel unloved by me. The thought of that brings tears to my eyes & then I repress the emotion. For whatever reason/s, I am very uncomfortable with showing sad or scared emotions.

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