adel34, I have suffered from depression and I understand the horrible lethargy that comes over you. I really hope you can find a therapist quickly. I would urge you to somehow grit your teeth and find the energy to arrange for a therapist. I tried many, many different antidepressants, but the most relief I found from depression was through therapy. I am hoping you find relief somehow quickly. Please let us know if there is anything we can do to help, as a group here.