I have bipolar 1 because I can look back on my life and see where I have had mixed episodes and some manic behavior. Also, my recent episodes have involved psychotic features like paranoia and the occassional hallucination. I went through most of my manias in my 20s. I am 38 now. I miss that energy now. I am working hard on my recovery and I feel positive that my hard work will pay off.

On the paperwork for my latest hospitalization (a couple of weeks ago) it says Bipolar 1 latest episode depressed with psychotic features.