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Hey everyone, I’m a bit upset as of a few days and I will explain to you guys what happened, for the most part.
I was with my boyfriend Gordon, I loved him very much and we talked a few times, but after we got together he just abruptly stopped talking to me. I wondered why but I just thought it was because he worked too much. About 2 or 3 days ago I get a message from him saying that we shouldn’t be dating and that he is sorry. I responded to it yet he never responded back. On that same day later on in the day I get a call from my brother bashing me for my past choices ( I had a sexual relationship with a guy in the past. I was confused as to how he knew because I had only told close friends that don’t like my brother and Gordon.) he called me names and said that the guy that I had sex with was using me. I was on the verge of tears but I stood my ground. What surprised me is that my brother knew what I wrote to Gordon on a social networking site. He knew the EXACT words. He said he has his ways of finding out. Now this isn’t the first time my brother does something so sneaky and shady. At that moment I knew that my brother hacked my social networking site and that he went through MY messages. He got on my social networking account and threatened my boyfriend as well. I really wanted to curse him out at that point but here comes the part that makes him nothing to me at this point in time. He starts to blackmail me, saying that if I were to meet Gordon or even talk to him again that he would tell my mom about my sexual history. I’m 16 years old, I live under my mom’s roof, I used her things, I eat her food. My mom is this religious lady that believes in sex after marriage. If she were to find out about my sexual history, she would kick me out of the house, along with beating me for not being “pure till marriage” I’m torn, like I’m sick and tired of my brother trying to “protect” me. Like I told my friends “WHO is he trying to protect me from?!” All he is doing is throwing dirt on my happiness, he is 25 years old, he needs to grow up and stay out of my life. There is nothing he can help me with, and I will be honest if I wanted help, I wouldn’t ask him for it. I had and still have feelings for Gordon and he ripped Gordon away from me just because he didn’t like the flirtatious way me and him were talking on the social networking site. Now every time I have to pick up my nephew to babysit him, I have to see my brothers face. It is like the elephant in the room, everyone sees the tension between us but no one chooses to acknowledge it. I want to keep talking to Gordon, but apparently he doesn’t want to talk to me for obvious reasons. (my brother threatened to take him to jail if he ever met up with me or so much as spoke to me ever again because he is 19 and I am 16) I’m tired of it. My brother took away one of the only few things that made me happy. It got to the point where I just disabled my social networking site account because he hacks it so much, it is ridiculous! I just need some way to confront him, and tell my mom about my past. I just don’t know how to go about it because it is such a delicate topic. Any ideas would be highly appreciated.
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