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such is life... · Jun 23, 2012, 02:11 PM

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I am throwing my daughter a birthday/ graduation party today. I am so proud of her. I have been doing a lot of healing and some integration.....and it has been really neat getting to know my daughter.....before.....I didn't even know what she looked like....but after the Mother Part ( the part that is her mom) was integrated we had to get to know our own kid....but you know what? My kid had to get to know me too....I am so thankful to the T we have now and the dedication and hard work she has done with our System...we have a long way to go .....but now we are living life. My kid has only known us as disassociated she never knew who she was comming home to, and bless her heart she had to be the grown up...a lot.... Now I am being the mom!!!....PS my kid is expecting twins in Feb....guess multiples run in the family....LOL!

This party was the first party I ever had for my kid....so it was very special for her and my System.( like I said this year me and my child have met for the first time)I was pretty much a person walking around who only had a pulse before..... I was way over medicated and had T's and psdoc's that didn't know their butt from a hole in the ground when it came to treating d.i.d. and SRA survivors. I am finally waking up to.....life....it's great...funny I am 45 and am just now noticing the blue sky, white fluffy clouds,grass the feel and smell of dirt,flowers,trees, the sunshine on my face....I've seen my first rainbow.A lot of lets say.....singletons....people that don't have their lives run by a bunch of alters like me (us, my brilliant mind came up with a way for me to cope with a really crappy childhood....if it wasn't for my alters we would not be here now. And thanks to the dedicated T's and psydocs out there that are willing to learn from each and every multiple they treat....THANK YOU.....please teach as many other health care professionals as you can....so we don't have to become a"granny" before getting our life back. "Normal" people take life and living for granted, and one day I hope to start being okay with "F" words ( feelings) and feeling those emotions I had to learn to never show....just to survive....hello world! ( this heart is beating....just like we are starting to live life... And that's why I chose "such is life..."