I told the bf that I didn't feel ready to move in with him. We had a big conversation and stuff...noe he keeps bringing up the fact that I don't want to committ and stuff. I'm tired of it.

He complained a lot the other day about not being able to get into the gate to my apt complex. He said if it were me that were visiting him at a gated apt, he would have spend the extra money to get another gate opener ($50). Way to make me feel bad! Mind you all he needs to do is call me from the gate and I can buzz him in.

I also just found out my the laundry machines are going up to $2.50per load- that's insane. It's costing me so much to live here. I complained to him, just to vent and he said " I'm not gonna comment- I don't know what to say"

Like that makes me feel better. I just wanted someone to say that sucks! And not have him make me feel bad AGAIN about not moving in with him. Why won't he just understand I'm not ready and let it go. I shouldnt hear about it all the time.

I'm supposed to go visit him and do game night with him and his kids to it. I don't wanna go. I don't even want to talk to him at this point.