Robert: please be carful thinking "I realize that meds are needed." Helpful maybe, but with NEEDED you run the risk of thinking the meds make you a better person.

Squiggle328: Please make an appointment w/ your pdoc and ask her why she thinks it's bipolar and not borderline. She may have a reason. Talk to your therapist about it too, there's no reason why you can't treat it as both until you get more information about the why's.