He has said if I think he is important, I would have already gotten, a gate pass. I offered I'm keys to the apartment but he declined- he said that that is something u do when u move in together..not before. So why would I think he'd want a gate pass as well? He said if it were him and I was needing a gate pass, he would have bought one for me a while back. So hep apparently wants me to pay.

He is upset bc he says I make a decision like not moving in other and then complain that the apt is too expensive. Or, I get another dog and then complain its too much. He says I do it all the time. Well the fact of the matter is, there are some things I'm going to do that I'll regret or get wishy-washy about or have negative feelings toward later on. It doesn't mean I regret my decision.

You are right tho, at least he cares about moving in with me..I could have the opposite and a guy who is terrified of that.

He asked me on the fly today if I ever want to move in with hi or if I could move in with him torso row (hypothetical, given the place and timeline) and I said yes. I think i said it bc I'm afraid of losing him. Now he thinks I'm all over the place. I can't win. I just want us, me, to be happy. And I'm getting to the point of throwing my hands in the air and giving up and walking away.