Mindfulness is probably one of the biggest reasons that I have been able to heal as much as I have.

I think a question for yourself is what benefits do you get from not being mindful. If there is a big payoff, no wonder you don't want to budge on this.

Life really is sweeter when you are aware of every passing moment. (But this is also why people avoid mindfulness when they are still working through the difficult stuff. Who wants to experience that stuff. But it is required for moving past it.).