I agree with Hanky - He will understand it's not him, and he may even be expecting these feelings. Try to remember that these are emotions, not logical thought. Try to separate them out from your head, and keep them from influencing your thoughts. You KNOW you are safe with T! But your emotions are making you FEEL that you are not safe. I hope you can realize that there are two different things going on right now.

Man, when these memories from the past start coming out I can't believe how powerful they can be!!!! The words "swept away" come to mind, at least for me. I think it's one of the biggest battles of therapy.

I hope you can talk to T about all this, because then maybe you can get through it and understand and the emotions will subside. Sending good thoughts your way ...