Hope, like faith, like moods, it waxes and wanes. Feeling hopeless today doesn't mean feeling hopeless tomorrow. I have NO doubt that your life means alot to your family, but you and ONLY you, can give it a meaning that will provide you with a purpose. Please take the neccessary measures to remain safe, distract yourself, stay within reach of someone else. Use interacting with that person as a distraction, listen to soothing music, watch a dvd. And if you can, then tell the person you're hurting, and you need their company.