So you're saying what? You can't afford this year of sobriety? Then why aren't you making it more more productive via a recovery program?

You seem hooked on the concept that your creativity must have drugs to feed off of. You seem mentally addicted to that idea now and may need help getting beyond that--you've been posting the same thing for a bit now.

Do you want this to work? Do you want to get sober now? If you have all this recording to do and are so convinced that you cannot do the work sober, why make any attempt now at sobriety?

Do the recording. Then get sober, experience it, see how good it can be when you can give your whole self to it. You're of two minds now, you're frustrated--& you're losing out on everything. What a shame.

My opinion, anyway.

Roadie