*********Trigger Warning for Discussion of CSA********









Hi everyone--

So, I have a really embarassing, potentially stupid question...

Until recently, I've believed for years that I remembered all the episodes of CSA that happened when I was a kid. Now, however, it seems like more than I remembered may have happened. It's difficult to accept and I feel like I'm making it up because I don't have all the details. Still, I'm trying to be open to whatever the facts turn out to be.

Anyway, about the time I started having new memories, I also started getting odd/sharp pains. (This is SO embarassing!) They're only occasional, and maybe it's just cramps or gas or goodness knows what. Still, the timing is striking. (Hopefully y'all get my point about what it feels like w/out my having to say anything more.) They've come at a variety of times, but definitely when I've been having shadowy memories.

So, I guess my question is whether any of you have had physical "memories" or something like that. Do you know what I mean? (Sorry...this is completely humiliating, but I'm really NOT inclined to go to a Dr. unless I absolutely have to, and so far it hasn't been debilitating for more than a moment or two, and fairly infrequently.)

Thanks for anything you can say. Especially if it's not "you're a total freak!"