Thank you very much, Valis, for your reply....very kind of you.

I know that being at the bottom of the hole means that I guess I have no where to go but up; however, I still feel that I haven't reached rock bottom, somehow.

One therapist once told me that attempting to climb out of this hole is like climbing out of a burning hell: the rungs on the stairs are extremely hot and painful, but they are the only way out....and eventually get "cooler" and "easier" the higher you climb........

I just can't seem to do it this time. Not now, at least.

Anyway, Valis, thanks again for listening. Perhaps I will share more soon. Take care.