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Originally Posted by fourth_in_line
Hi everyone. I've been checking out posts here for the past few weeks since I was diagnosed. I'm especially a fan of the "You know you're borderline when..." thread. It kind of indulges me after not knowing why I was "different" for most of my life. Anyway, I only decided to make a PC account today after cutting for the first time and wanting to talk about it but having nowhere to turn.
It's been one of those hopeless without any particular trigger days and I'm not sure why I did it - maybe because I read in Borderline for Dummies that I'm supposed to and I've been having trouble affirming this diagnosis in my head? Maybe it's because I overheard my parents on the phone after a recent suicide attempt saying "She'd never really do it." An hour later, I feel fine. Now I want to be productive and have a good rest of the day. Mucho mood swing, surprise, surprise. I guess that's normal.
Also, kind of confused by what's "triggering" but I'm obviously terrified of everyone getting mad at me so I thought I'd be safe with an icon. Typical, eh?
Looking forward to getting to know you all  |
You know, I've thought the same thing. Im undiagnosed. Impretty positive I have bpd, maybe I'm bipolar type two too. Idk. I'm a psych major. I don't get the triggers. The only things that set me off are mostly un-guessable. I can't predict them. My boyfriend (of four years) can't either so I think he verifies that.
I mood swing like no ones business. I can be the most productive person in the world. Or I sit there feeling sorry for myself all day. I don't tend to fit in the middle of that. I'm one or the other. I'd like to say I have friends, but I don't. Idk if that's because of me, or because of other reasons. Idk.
I'm really sorry you were in a bad enough place to cut.. I hope you don't anymore. I've been contemplating it for a while, but I am too much of a whimp to do it. Guess I'm stuck here. Good luck. If you want someone to talk to I'm here, even though I probably won't help much. sorry for wasting your time here, actually.