I have a Fiancee, A 6 month old son, wonderful coping skills, a clean slate & a fresh start. . . Yet I cannot help but to respond to any high tensions/& overtly stressful situations with either a kind of moderate dissociation (3rd party perspective) or anxious/frantic pacing & repetitious statements of worry, questioning what to do (not actually thinking of what to do, just say it over and over)
My Lover is extremely supportive and infinitely patient. I just cannot for the life of me understand why sometimes I am so incredibly mellow, clearheaded, patient,am able resolve the issue at hand with delicacy, precision,& all within a timely fashion....Yet other times I am rendered virtually useless + in need of comfort and reassurance that my Fiancee will take care of everything(not just vague promises of doing so, but full on detailed play-by-play of how)

anybody else have something similar to share with me? perhaps we could put our heads together and help each other work thru it or at least gain some insight.