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Originally Posted by LydiaB
I don't ever remember writing a post about being angry because someone didn't believe I had a dangerous alter. Where exactly was that? There isn't a single person who doesn't believe it. That's exactly what I'm talking about. Except my inpatient psychiatrist and I agreed with her! I was upset with her because she told me DID didn't exist period and that's why she didn't believe it could be possible. Those are two total separate things.
And as far as being angry, I think it's a relatively normal expression to being told you're going to be sleeping next door to felons in group home for the next year. I'm sorry am I supposed to be happy about this? I think you're reading its and bits of my story through my past posting, but you're not getting the entire picture. My parts come on here to write randomly, but they don't show the entire picture. Like I haven't mentioned that after I get out of Sheppard Pratt I will be spending a year in a group home, because they have deemed me incapable of taking care of myself. I haven't mentioned that part of the reason I am upset with my family is because an extremely valuable member is upset with me for needing all of this. You can't go back and read my posts and assume stuff. It's not fair to me as a poster. Because when you write stuff like this it chases away people from writing supportive feedback for that part that needed it at the time. This is the second time you've tried to "catch up to me" now. It's not helpful.
I don't need you to show me the entire picture. That's why I'm going to Sheppard Pratt. I come here for support, not to be woken up from some dim sleep. I am not well right now, but I would appreciate it if you didn't remind all my parts of that, because some of them don't know that and are purposely being protected from that for a reason.
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I got it from the postings about you going in to the hospital over the weekend. they asked you why you were there, you told them people were saying you had parts that were trying to kill you. the hospital person didnt believe in DID and called your alters "things" and you told her if she wasnt going to treat you then to refer you to someone else and ended the post with
"She let me leave. But she didn't listen to my outpatient therapist who said I am in danger of being hurt by these parts, because she didn't believe it was possible."
the whole tone of that post came off as you being angry at this hospital doctor who didnt believe in DID and didnt believe you were in danger from your alter.
no I dont expect you to be happy people rarely are when they find out they are about to be put in programs against their will.
I went into detail explaining about things because I thought maybe you were posting while in dissociated states. So I was carrying over what the situaiton was so that what ever parts of you were posting all these conflicting possibly angry postings could get an idea of whats gonig on and possibly calm down so that you the host could come back and deal with whats going on and understand whats happening to you..
many times when dissociatives go through finding out they are about to be put inpatient against their will the whole system goes whonky for a bit (I know mine did every time ) and the host is left going... what the heck is going on, I dont remember this that (like you are doing)
...I was trying to provide some consistency in my postings so that maybe my doing so would help your alters calm down and let you come back out... thats what these boards are for right..to help each other in hard times and support each other...