Never been called a "nutbag" before. I wonder how Michaelangelo, DaVinci, Vangogh, Lord George Gordon Byron, John Keats, Emily Dickenson, Edgar Allen Poe,Herman Melville, F. Scott Fitzgerald, not to mention the geniuses of music, among many, many other artists and geniuses would have felt being called that? They were all bipolar, you know. And they made strong positive contributions to society. And they had no modern medical techniques for treating their illness.

You underestimate the contributions of the giftedness of bipolar illness. You have yours, no doubt. I wish you could climb out of the mood and think and see clearly
the contributions you have to make to life.

Get your meds schedule adjusted if necessary and congratulations on keeping things under control as much as possible. It doesn't need to be really as difficult as you
present it, however.

How's your diet? You know that has a huge place to play in your moods, I'm sure.
Caffeine addiction alone is one that can present itself as bipolar illness if you're sensitive to it and use it. Avoid alcohol; both caffeine and alcohol make bipolar illness worse.

Then there's watching the acid-reacting foods you eat. See Acid-reacting Foods.com to learn which ones to avoid to keep the fluids of your system more alkaline.

That's my answer to your "get the duck outa' here" position.

Some of us try to force feed when necessary!

Take care of yourself.

Genetic