My husband and I have been in a rocky relationship for quite a few years now. He thinks a few months of good behavior will make years of hurt go away. I am so frustrated right now. I am so close to walking away except I firmly believe that is the wrong thing to do. So at this very moment I just set here mad, upset, frustrated and unsure of everything.
Me children and I returned from a weekend trip with my parents. My husband was invited to come along. He was given about 4 weeks notice so he could save $ if he wanted. He declined. I knew he would but the invite was still made so he would not feel left out.
My husband is a little controlling. I was pretty sure he would not want me to go with my parents. But when I asked him he said " sure do what ever you want to do" So I did. I went. It was not like he was going to be home anyway he never is. So why would I want to stay at home alone.
My parents invited me to go with them because they know there was not going to be any vacation for my family this year. I also have no money. They had to pay for the room, amusement park, food, and gas for me and my kids. Usually they just take my older kids, This time it was older younger and me. My dad would not have offered if he didn't want to do it. But instead my husband took offence because he didn't get to take us and my dad did. I guess that threatened hi ability to be a provider. But my husband has no intention of taking us anywhere. None of us want to be locked in a car with him for hours on end. Only to be told when we can eat, where we can eat, and what we will do. He's no fun and ruins everything with his anger and particularness. It was just a shame to ruin a good weekend with this kind of crap. I'm so tired of this beeing the average way things work out. I just needed to dump.
Thank You,
Big Mama