By the way, I'm a 32 year old woman.

Now I'm in a splint for 6 weeks. All because I'm being denied a promotion at work, which I deserved. They know I've missed days due to illness and they don't care.

I was so close to accomplishing something amazing for the first time in my life and once again I failed. And I punished myself by punching a door and breaking a bone in my hand.

Why can't I just be an alcoholic like everyone else? Instead I go and fight with a steel door.

I am so ashamed of myself. Especially being a woman. I've been telling people at work that i fell. I am so embarrassed.

I was so close to fixing things.. finally.. and then this. And i just read my insurance may not even covr it because it's self-inflicted.

I am never going to get out of this hole.