Maybe part of what is going on, since you only ever see her at a church office, I assume that's not HER private owned space with her things in it, pictures, books, etc - so now she's on vacation, and you don't have a place in your mind really for her to come back to, that has her "stuff" in it? Cos like my T's office almost doesn't need him in it, once all the therapy dolls are set up in the chairs! So where is your therapy place, where is she missing "from", in your mind right now? By asking about her "real" life now, it sounds like she has disappeared for you.