I am so sorry for your loss..... condolences...... I lost my brother 11 years ago....Christmas day...... I was one of the hardest phone calls to take. He was 46.....I did not eat, sleep or work for 2 weeks.... somedays I still pick up the phone to call him.......I know what kind of pain you must have...... Blessings.....Let me know it I can do anything.......