BPTpartner it is strange you should mentions one's meekness. This individual cry's when someone does something nice for her. I'm the same way. It is a strange responce I don't understand. If someone tells me I'm proud of you, you are doing a good job, I fall apart. If someone does something nice for me I just want to cry. I'm so grateful someone cares I guess. A lady at our church gave me a winter coat. It was snowing one morning everyone in my family was wearing a coat except for me. She said to me "Where's your coat, I know you've got one"? I didn't say anything my husband was to close but later she asked me if I had a winter coat. I told her no. I was so excited when she gave me a coat. She gave me a barn coat and a church coat. I will be forever grateful. It had been 4-5 years since I had a winter coat. I don't want to burden her with to much info but if she knew the life I lived inside this house it would be very helpfull. She would be in disbelief that this is foing on right here in our own church. My secret would be out. Then what would I do if people knew the kind of emotional abuse that goes on in this house. It's hard to accept help from people, from strangers, just little things and I don't understand why it is so difficult. If people knew then I'd be forced to do something about it possibly. Then I'd be looked down upon even more for not doing something about it and choosing to continue to live like this.
Thanks for listening,
Bib Mama