I think that is normal, especially if you are in the denial phase. I have had experiences like that with deaths in the family, initially not very upset but then started to cry at the funeral or even at some point later in time.
Like sky said... the stages of grief are not "ordered". different people experience them in different orders and each stage may be very quick or may last a while. Sometimes people go through one stage then onto another and then double-back and experience an earlier stage again. This really all lasts as long as it has to, for your personal grieving process, until you ultimately reach the acceptance stage.
Really, though, for all the psychobabble (even though I think in this case it is recognizable and helpful) I think really the whole point of this is simple: everyone grieves differently and you should NEVER feel as if you are grieving "improperly." Some people never cry, some are emotional and sensitive for a very long period. It has absolutely no bearing on your love for the your pup but only about the feelings that you personally need to feel to grieve. Remember the classic instruction: feelings are neither good nor bad, they just are.
It is really obvious that you loved and missed him. That is part of your expression of grief. Don't spend another second worrying that you are not noticably upset. I wouldn't be surprized if you didn't become rather emotinional about this at some point in the near future, but if it doesn't express itself that way it is nothing to worry about. Your body will do what it needs to do. Grief is supposed to get you through the loss, not be a "show" for others either.
Take care silver_queen. All you have to do is be open and accepting of any feelings that do or do not come your way through this process. Continuing to talk about it here will hopefully help as well.
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