((((Brontoset)))) I can relate. We may have different Dx's, but I feel the same way.

I try to keep positive when those thoughts come up, but it can be REALLY hard sometimes.

Through T, I am building a very solid foundation (one on which I did not have before).
I have excused myself from the negative, toxic people in my life that kept (or keep) me down.
I am working hard on digging through the past to face things with dignity, courage and grace.

I think there is hope. For what, I have no idea. I am a blank slate right now.
But I KNOW that all this work is not for nothing.

Please keep posting and let us know how you are doing.