Day 3, and still standing strong. I've been chewing gum like crazy and avoiding going out back (that's where I smoked, outside on back porch). I fear if I go out back I will smoke.

I've been doing a lot to kill time. I've been going on walks, cleaning, playing with my kids, and even taking my kids down to the park to get free lunch everyday.

I'm sure it's strange for people, especially my husband, mom, and sister, to see my without a cigarette in my hand. Not having a cigarette is a better look for me anyway.

I wonder how long it takes for it too get easier. 3 days and it's still difficult. Maybe a week or two and I won't think about cigarettes as much. At least I hope.

There's this annoying part of my brain that says "just one, nobody will know, it won't hurt, and is it worth it", but for some reason I still have strength over it, like a silent power has taken over me. Whatever it is, I'm glad it's there to get me through this.

Thanks all so much for being there for me. It means a lot to me.