I don't post here very often at all. But I need to get this out.

I am being pulled every which way.
With ropes attached to every one of my limbs. They pull on me, every which way. They stretch my body. They make my body hurt. They make my brain tired. They make my mind nervous. They make myself go nuts.

One rope wants me to go North. Where it's cold and dark. And I can't see anything there. The blackness paralyzes me and makes me lethargic. Sometime's the handler of this rope gets his way. He has more strength and stamina and he can go on for days. ...Sometimes months. He makes me empty, cause he drains everything out of me.

The rope that pulls me South is the exact opposite. But equally as strong. I have a lot of energy. But that doesn't mean I like it when South pulls at me. South makes me destructive. South makes me angry one minute and then just peachy the next. South makes me do everything at once, but drop them because South annoys me. South makes me frustrated. South makes me hear things and believe things that aren't there. South is a liar. I hate south. South makes me burn alive.

North and South both make manipulate me... They both make me have dark thoughts. They make me suicidal....

West is nice. West makes me happy. Thanks to West, I have all the talents and dreams that I have now. Thanks to West, I can have energy that is enjoyable. But thanks to West, I have people who don't get me. Aren't as motivated as me, and think I'm too far fetched ahead of me. But it's okay... West tries. It'd be nice if West was stronger.

East doesn't pull a lot. It has once. I was a normal person with a normal mindset. East was nice. I miss East.