Hi Rainecloud,

I have chronic recurrent depression and find that I get flare ups more often as I get older than when I was younger. Are u still on medication? perhaps it needs to be changed. I know for myself, I need to change AD's every year because they usually stop working. I have never been off medication, I am 50 and was diagnosed when I was 15. Maybe you need to get back into therapy if you are not already going. I hope you feel better soon.