((((Big Mama)))), you are doing all of the right things...please try to focus on the positive steps that you are taking: you are speaking with a T, you are reaching out here on PC, you are opening your circle and reaching out to others in your community in real life.

Perhaps you will (very soon) feel safe enough to speak with this lovely lady again, or with your pastor, so you can take another step.

In the meantime, please keep posting. be safe.

Hugs to you,