I always had clear skin growing up. Towards the end of high school, I would sometimes get a small pimple around the time of my period, but I would put spot treatment on it, not pick at it, and it would heal within a few days. My first year of college my skin was the same. I would have the occasional blemish, but nothing major at all. I am going into my junior year of college and I can honestly say my skin has never looked worse. I started getting more blemishes after New Years. I actually got a cyst on the side of my cheek soon after starting the new semester, but I went to my derm, she gave me a cortisone shot, and it shrunk to a small spot within hours and healed completely in less than a week. After spring break, I started to feel self conscious about my body. I knew that my birth control (I have taken Yaz since the end of senior year) made me curvier than I was naturally. I decided to go off of Yaz as soon as I got back from vacation, which was mid-March. Between the time I went off of Yaz and the end of my last semester, I started to get blemishes regularly (especially on my chin and sometimes on my forehead). I figured that my hormones just needed to readjust and my skin was still pretty clear so I continued to stay off of the Yaz. However, in the past two months my skin has turned into a complete wreck. I finally decided to go back on Yaz three and a half weeks ago, but I still look like ****. I have skin colored bumps all over my forehead, big pimples in between my eyebrows and on one side of my chin, blackheads in the creases between my nose and cheeks, and, as of this morning, a small rash of pink colored bumps on the lower part of one of my cheeks. I can't blow dry my hair because I cry the whole time having to look at myself in the mirror. I have been calling in sick from work, blowing off friends, and legitimately been considering suicide. My life was very difficult before, when my skin was nearly perfect. Now I don't want to do anything. I can't get out of bed in the morning, yet I hope and pray for the day when I can enjoy my life again and feel confident with the way I look. Please, if anyone has gone through anything similar or has any advice. Please please please, help me.