Thankyou all for your kind support. it is good to know that there are people who still care and to those who also suffer, i send what little strength of support remains to me. since my post, sadly things have got worse and i am now diagnosed as being psychotic (deluded); although i KNOW that What i hear and see is real, even though the Doc thinks I'm ill. He wants me to go into hospital for a 'rest' but is getting very close to 'Sectioning' me which in England means being taken into hospital against your will for anything from an initial 3 days to 6 or even 12 months.He has made me promise that i won't end up in intensive care by the way i am feeling and because i also have to look after my disabled mum for the next 2 weeks, he has set me free but wants to see me twice a week, (Mon and Fri)over these weeks, ending 10th July. He can of course force me into hospital at any time if he thinks he must but i am hoping that he understands how i have to look after mum. So my depression is hidden in my internal lock box and i am like a robot, just working without feeling. Just hope i can hold out... Thanks again everyone, please be strong for each other and remain so for me, i beg of you. yours in desperation. vortex </font><blockquote><div id="quote"><font class="small">Quote:</font>
Today, the light at the end of the tunnel really IS the express train heading for me. </font><blockquote><div id="quote"><font class="small">Quote:</font>
Stay away from the light!... <font color="orange"> </font>