I have been trying, unsuccessfully, for some time now to change my self-esteem and negitive attitude. But I haven't been trying hard enough, without enough perserverence. Today is my day of change. I go in for a psych eval in the morning, and this is going to work this time. I am going to set a goal every day on this post. Probably more than one, even if it is only daily tasks or personal hopes for the day. I will stick to it, and post what did get accomplished of those goals. I can no longer live with myself the way I have been, and I can no longer ask the people I love to live with it either. This is the real day of change; this is the day I begin being the strong woman I know is deep inside me. She will overcome the hurtles and negitivity. I will be the person I want so desprately to be.