Thank you everyone for the responses! I am no longer feeling this way (although my hypochondria is acting up INSANELY and I've convinced myself I have mouth cancer, lung cancer, hiv.. *sigh*). But even still, it's a different thing, not the sense of 'any day now, something's gonna happen' that I had when I typed this.

I see my doctor tomorrow and am going to ask about luvox, I think. It helps with OCD.. and that's definitely what I'm having at this point; obsessive, repetitive thoughts about specific health 'problems'. No matter how hard I try, I always come back to 'yeah but I'm sure I have..' or 'what if it is that?...' which, of course, causes anxiety and panic..

I'm frustrated. I can do so well for periods of time, and then BAM! It hits me again. I know that the next thing in this 'cycle' is depression over this anxiousness.. I can already feel that starting. Then I get mad at myself for falling after doing well.

GRRRRRR... does this roller coaster ever END?!