I don't really have much advice for you, I just wanted you to know I hear how painful this is for you and I wanted you to know that PC is a very supportive place. We can all feel your pain and send you as many warm, safe thoughts, support, and hugs that we can muster.

Long distance is hard. I did it with my husband when we were dating. But we never had to go through the extreme hurdles you had to endure. The only advice I can give is to echo was beauflow said. Also only having one love in my life, I don't know first hand, but I agree that each love feels different because no two couples are the same. Just because you don't feel the same way about Hussain doesn't mean you love him less. You might just love him differently. But LDRs are very expensive, so I would try to take some caution and not rush this in case this is just your rebound. I'm not saying it definitely will be or that it is, but just to be careful both with your heart and your money...

Please feel free to come here and reach out for support whenever you need it.