I have nothing left to live for. I have been struggling for so long and have tried so hard to push through and make it out on the other side, but it's almost as if every time i take a step forward, I am faced with an even greater problem to overcome and end up taking a million steps back. I feel hopeless, hateful, angry, sad, upset, anxious... you name it. I feel so alone and I know that the only people who still care about me (basically, my family) are tired of hearing me whine and complain. I am tired too. Tired of having no energy, tired of nothing going my way, tired of looking like crap and feeling even worse. I literally don't even have the energy to commit suicide. I just want to lay down in my bed and sleep until I die.