Hi nevergiveup8,
Your name says it all...never give up!!! I know what you're talking about with the lonliness of depression. I'm stuck in a business that I hate and can't easily get out of; I have the threat of pending litigation from a former employee who is trying to sue me (frivolously as it may be) for everything that I've got; my wife started an Internet affair with an old friend of mine about a year ago, and though she says it's over, I still have my doubts; I have no savings for the future; I'm still in student loan debt from grad school; my house is falling apart...there's more, but it's too overwhelming to type about...Despite all of this, something led me to these forums where people really do care. I know that it might feel rotten for you right now, but start with some simple appreciation...you can type, you can read, you can get online, you found some support, and at least two people have taken the time to reach out to you. Though we'll likely never meet, know that I sincerely care and am hoping that you can find some relief.