Hi. I'm so sorry about all you're going through, and thank you for posting. I think I understand when you mention that your family does not understand your depression. Unfortunately this miserable condition can be so very hard on relationships of all kinds....you are in no way alone on this. I actually do not have any family except an elderly aunt in her 90's, but I know depression has been very difficult to deal with in my friendships. Some people just let me know, in sometimes not-so-subtle ways that they would rather not talk about it, and others may SAY that they accept it, but their actions prove otherwise. And I know....this really hurts. I hope that all of us somehow find some people in the world whose hearts are open enough to not be scared away because we suffer from something that is in no way our fault....and that we in no way deserve. That is my prayer, and I'm sending you lots of warm thoughts and hugs, with the hope that things get better for you as soon as possible.....