So this is going to sound very very far-fetched, but here it goes. So I am a musician and see this as part of my identity. I was in my first official band this year in college, and am very proud of that, however I am finding this hard to do now. We played many, many shows throughout the year, and while I am proud of all of them, almost NONE of them were official. For the most part, they were just playing at some party, for someone's birthday, filling in for someone at the last minute when they dropped out, or playing in some store etc. So while many bands play venues, have legit shows, I feel very insecure about the shows our band played, and have trouble saying that we played many shows, because in many ways it just feels like a joke. I had this weird obsession with having to have a flyer in order for it to be an "official" show, so for our last show, nobody made one (nobody EVER did for our shows and this started to get me really frustrated, so I finally just took the initiative and made one myself), so I made one myself, and posted it around, and after the show, felt really proud of myself. FINALLY we had an official show, and I felt like I had now officially been a part of a band. Everything felt great. Then about a week later, I realized I had forgotten to put the price for the show on the flyer. Now to most people, this would just seem like oh well, whatever. But to anxious, obsessive me, it was devastating. This meant that the flyer didn't matter, the show wasn't official, we never played any shows, I wasn't in an actual band, etc. etc. And now I am just kicking myself for not putting a stupid "5$" on the flyer. How I missed that I have no idea, but it is just driving me mad. It's like I feel I can't even call myself a musician anymore. I just want to accept this blunder and be proud of what I have accomplished this year.