I agree that anger can be depression that turns inwards. I understand how that works with me. Unfortunately, recently, a series of past experiences that I thought were buried have surfaced. And it is not helping the process of a rehab plan. It is compounded by recent death of a loving pet cockatiel. Other emotions that have been bottled up are not helping either. Medical condition complicates effective medical treatment. But I carry on to put on a "public face" when I need to in order to complete the tasks at hand. However, I feel it is a struggle to explain to other people in person without the fear of making things worse than I like life to be. So I am happy I connect with ppl with similiar feelings and thoughts and experiences that understand better than many of the ppl I have to be in contact with. Thanks.