How do you stay on meds when you don't really wanna be on them?

I don't want to be "dependent" on Celexa. I want to take nothing. Yet when I take nothing I crash badly, which isn't a good look when you have a busy job.

I have a lovely doctor. He is South African and soooo nice. But he told me I needed meds for six months and he would be grumpy if I did not take them. I *should* go back n see him, or call him as he requested. But I am super scared to do so cos he might pick up how much I am trying to do without them.

Any advice?