Hey there!
I don't have much advice for you sorry, but I know how you feel. I have been trying to reduce my meds since last year, but each time my appt comes up with the doc something else has happened in my life that has set me back, and I have not been able to reduce them. I have been on the same meds (dose-wise) since about Dec/2004 Jan/2005 and I am sick of not only taking such high doses, but of taking so many tablets. I do know that if I stop my meds for any reason, I come crashing down so have learnt the hard way to do as the doc says. I guess that in the long run it will be for the best- if everything can get sorted 'inside' me it will make for a 'better' me. Right????!!!!
All the best with this. See your doc, and let him know how you feel. I know my doc would be really happy if I wasn't on the meds I am now but she just wants to make sure that I stay 'in the right place'. I'm sure that talking it over with him will help, and that if he sees how hard you are trying to do without them he will agree with you. I hope this kinda makes sense. Take care of yourself, and keep smiling