I'm gonna try to make this short, but please read. I'm 15 years old and my parents have been divorced since I was 5. My mom, brother and me moved away frOm my dad to Virginia. I talked to my dad every so often but I didn't see him much. Then my parents tried to live together in our townhouse in Virginia and that did not work out. So in 2008 my dad ran away to Spain and then Venezuela because he is Venezuelan. My mom got cancer in summer of 2009 but by late 2011 doctors said that she would be dead in two months or less. So that ment my dad would have to come back to America. My. Dad had been out of the country for too long so he got a humanitarian visa with the help of my aunt which allows him to be here for 6 months. My mom didn't die and she is gettin better every day and she can even drive now. Anyway my dad promised y mon many things over the phone which he obviously lied about . My father is a bi polar achoholic who also does steroids. Me and my mom and brother have moved back to louisiana just about two weeks ago to live in a house with my dad an it has been terrible all they did was fight about everything but now my mom don't talk to him that much anymore. He is fighting and giving my mom sknkuch stress while she is fighting for her life with breast cancer.... My dad wants to marry someone so that he doesn't have to go back to Venezuela in August when six months Is over. On a side note... I think I have some sexual and mental issues I'm 15 and female and the mainly older guys like me because I look like I'm 20. But I have given 7 blow jobs but I'm still a virgin. About a week ago. I left my house at 2 am and I thought my dad was sleeping. Turns out he saw me get into a car and thought I got raped do he called the police. Luckily when î was done I told the guy I was with to drop off not infront of my house ory dad would've killed him because he had a gun with him. Another thing is tht I think this world might be fake or maybe there is cameras watching my every move do sometimes I don't do certain things because of that. I'm also pretty sure me and my 14 year oldbrother are deffinatly bibpolar. No doubt about it: we'll right now I'm in my room laying down with all the lights off because I just got finished crying for I hate my life so much . I have considered becoming a street waalker or stripper when I grow up then again I've wanted to kill myself many times but I know I won't because I'm even to scared to cut my self