Hi Rainstorm,
I can see where ur coming from here...i am 21 and moved out recently b/c i was afraid of what i would do to myself if i stayed...i have had depression (am currently recovering) and i could just see myself going further and frther downhill if i stayed. my parents were very strict and controlling and had a lot of personal problems of their own which they made me the scapegoat for. sounds like u are going thru a similiar situation. have u looked into financial aid for college, maybe working part time,etc. if u want to go to college and put your mind to it, i'm sure u'll succeed! just try to ignore your brother when he says stuff like that, it's not worth listening to. good luck and i hope u can find a way to move out!