The depression is getting me. THIS time I have to fight harder. I don't want to be where I was at the beginning of the year and essentially stopped functioning. I am feeling more and more....not wanting to do my sports training. Not socializing. Hiding in my house in the dark.

I am tired from fighting with my job....of course that played some part. The fight is not over with them. At some point I have to go back....meanwhile I am frantically searching for jobs.

I don't want to get beat by this depression....