Well we talked last night. He knew something was on my mind cause I was quiet yesterday. So no baby. He made some really good points. He doesn't think I could emotionally or physically handle a baby. Emotionally I think I could. But he's right physically it would be a nightmare. He said look you can hardly even walk around today. I have MS and a heart murmur, along with digestive problems. Plus all my mental problems. He asked how I would feel if something happened to the baby. Would I be able to handle a sick child? And then if something happened to me, he doesn't know how he would deal with a sick wife. He said he would feel guilty about it.

But he said if I still feel the same in a couple of years we could look into adoption or becoming foster parents. So he did leave the door open.

Lisa